The Year of Expansion

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, 

and He will give you everything you need

-Matthew 6:33, NLT- 

It always looks funny how God’s plan works and takes us... 

including what He has for me... In which I surrender myself in.

Since I entered University, I always wonder..  

Am I in the right direction of my life? 

Am I took the right Major for my University? 

How if I took the wrong path in life?

Those questions often distract me from believing in myself and make me worry a lot, maybe I worry most of the time and feel not confident in myself. I often felt inferior when I looked at other people who succeed in their life and could do many incredible things in their young ages.

By the end of 2017, I looked back on how I've been living the whole year and realized that I was having a hard time to be grateful and easily worry about things. 

Why could that happen?  Because there was a hole of emptiness in my heart and life... 

I was getting far and far away from God. I rarely read the Bible, and pray daily only as a habit, going to church to complete my responsibility to serve. I realized it was so wrong and I feel that I need to renew my spirit in God. 

Is God leaving me? No, He never was and never will. 

I was the one who is getting far away from Him but He always there for me and was waiting for me to come back and talk to Him.

In 2018 I determined to stop comparing myself to other, focus on my life and focus more on fixing my relationship with Him. 

I have the will, I prayed and asked God to help me learn how to commit and discipline in keeping up my relationship with Him. 

And God opened His way! 

My church (GBI Rock City Church)’s youth community (Kingdom Generation Community/KGC), made a project call KomSal (Komunitas Saling/Mutual Community) in which we divided our into small groups of people (2-4 people/group) to keep in touch, understanding, praying, sharing, and caring for each other more. 

We also made the core unit in which we make daily praylist of things that are more sensitive and specific.

That project is like a daily reminder for me and motivates me to pray sincerely because the others are praying sincerely too.

I do not only pray out of habit before sleep or after I wake up, but I take time to worship God, say my gratefulness of what He has done the whole day for me, and then pray for not only me but for other people’s problems and needs.

Before or after praying I take time to read bible and devotionals. It’s still hard for me to read the whole year reading plan because it really takes a lot of time and willingness, so I started with reading a different kind of daily or weekly devotional plans.

The praying and reading time really give a great impact in my life. It’s really awesome how when I decided to surrended my life to Him and focus more to Him, God fill the emptiness inside me and showing His great plan for my life in an unthinkable way.  

I'm so ready for this year of expansion in my life!

My great story will be on my next post!